The Others

Finally I get to this moment and you ruin it. Why do you always have to be

so difficult and you never seem to understand anything and now you want
me to change everything because you think it will make things better.
And did you ever think about how it would affect me later, just because
you think you know everything.
If you knew how wrong You are

Beautiful reflections

Soweit das Auge sieht, wie uns geschieht. Ich leg es in deine Hand
Gib mir den morgen danach, weck mich auf wenn ich schlaf auch wenn die Winde eisig sind.
Wenn die Zeit es zeigt wird man sehen, ob wir die richtigen Weg gehen.
Mach es dir nicht zu schwer, zuviele Blicke sind schon leer. Wir stellen die Ordnung wieder her
die keine Ordnung ist.
Doch ich fühl mich federleicht, weil es sich fast immer lohnt
wenn mich das neue dann berührt was dann mich zu dir führt.
Ich lebe den Augenblick, frage mich nicht wie und warum. Ich lass mich nicht umdrehen,
Ich bleib einfach so wie ich bin. Ich will alles riskieren, will gewinnen und will Dich.
Wie schön so ein Tag sein kann , doch es hällt dann...
Nur einen kleinen Moment an.
♣♥♣♥

the first

I try to make things better, but they seem just getting more worser and I cannot measure
what am seeing and feeling. Its just to hard to believe because I do not know where
its coming from. Have I done something wrong to deserve this kind of
Love, Hate, Missery and we having our Anniversary soon I dont want to blame you for anything
I just want it to be beautiful and perfekt because i,ve never had it. I want you forever
you and I, I dont want to live without you nor you live without me. I,ve looked
into you,re eyes a million times and thats enough to see
the light that bonds us together. Please do
not let me go.
Never.

Curiosity

For the Record you oughta know that when Im looking in your eyes it feels like the first time.
Silence can be so disturbing and I,ll be standing below the lights. Waiting for the right
moment to come and we can see the stars beyond the clouds.
While im watching the world spinning gazing through the tough nights and getting to understand
more and more about every kind of situation around us I know and feel the sun burning.
Our love is unending bond to show us and teach us more and how not to
take us for granted and we slowly turn and change
well I'll follow to a place I know
that's only the beginning
start over after ending.
♣

I thought they new but they do not know.

Friends should be Radical.
They should Love you when your unloveable.
Hug you when your unhugable
and Bare you when your unbareable.

A Friend should be Fanatical,
they should Cheer when the whole world Boos
Dance when you get good news
and cry when you cry too.

But most of all

A Friend should be Mathematical.
They should Multiply your Joy,
Divide your Sorrow,
Subtract the past and
Add to Tomorrow.
Calculate the need Deep in
your Heart and always be Bigger than the Sum of all your Parts.

Amnesia

The part that must be you are the one of it lines after lines step through the signs shivering in light crossing my sight always loving you. There,s nothing I do, nowhere I go. Stuck in this room filled with hope. Whenever I step into it, I receive a warm hug. Here I am alone. Here I am on my own. Nobody to harm me. My room has always been the right place. Here I sit and right my thoughts. My heart is beating and burning.It running. I cant bare but stay still all I have is to live.I wish my other blood could understand but it doesnt so I turn. I walk past a road , past a street past a small bridge the calm wind which cools me down. I feel whole in seconds. His smile is like a keý to a secret door. I cant waste it I have to have it and love it. Its mine.His mine. How I wish I could fly free like a ´butterfly. Fly to you. But when I wake up go to the bathroom change my clothes sit down and turn the page and there I sit again in my room on my own writing my thoughts that just you should know. Waiting for the darkness to protect my soul. To hide my aches my sadnes. To go to sleep and dream of you till the end of time. To kiss you good night and hold you tight. In my dreams there we are always together for eternity.
Love me please.

God sent me an Angle last year in Sumer. And I hope he doesn,t suggest to take my Angle away from me

Now its not been long. But I feel so undone.
Im not Home where I can just get the bus and
head to you if I wanted to its miles away and
Im just feeling Blue.
If you were like my air I would have been Dead.
Not having you by my side is like breathing fire
it hurts so much.
But I know you Love me so that keeps me strong
and I Love you too

microphone

Are you still living this life of true fate and fake.
Things change, people go and don,t think to make things
better when they make them worse infront of you.
You wished I could surrender and never ever thought
you could be the only one who would ever bring me
in thinking of what your doing right know and how
your doing.At the moment im preety bussy and You seriously
thought I would not come over you. I did, infact long ago.
When you left it was like a soul living a body.
Dont forget how you had it when we were still near.
Do not ever, it might be so stupid but I know
You Liked everything about me. Dont say you didn.t.
DONT

my favourite colour is blue

The evidence that knowing you love me so much
is too good to be true too bad to be good and
too sweet to be soure. It aches so much that it feels
very good to me. No wasting time, thinking of how it
could be, me without you. Which will never be true
and hoping we stay ture to each other till the end of time.

seriously

All I wanted to tell him remained untold in my mouth what a waste of time.
My coffee tastes burned and I only put it for 2 minutes in the microwave.
I wish I was the girl you always wanted to meet that you wouldn,t go to sleep
before thinking of me I wish you would want to kiss my lips that long for yours
Im heavy handed, to say the least that is in my mind right now. I hate burning my finger
on the toaster and I hate all the mistakes that I usually make and I hate anyone who
if I was serving chips wouldn,t talk to me. I smiled but did not talk say you miss me some and kiss me !
I´m just this little button on your blouse beautiful and red like any other T-shirt in your closet, I wish I was to be the one you wore everyday. All I know is that your so nice, the nicest thing I´ve ever seen in my whole life.♥

Everyday I see my face

My skin is appealing to what you think is real.
I need me but those where the days we used to feel pretty good
and have so much fun. I know very well, I´ll never refuse the thought of missing
everyone of you and what we went through, those fucking 3 years. It´s just the beginning of a Resolution.

heart beat

If I could hold you close, like you were never gone
If I could hear your voice, you,d tell me to be strong
But sometimes I just can´t, I don´t understand
Ain´t it funny how you think your´e gonna be okay
Till you remember things ain´t never gonna be the
same again.Its so crazy how you think you,ve got
your whole life planned, Just to find out it was never
ever in your hands. My world don´t make no sense
Not without you. And sometimes i just cry can´t say i don´t
know why.But when the futur comes knocking you just have
to make it through. You just change.

I love milkshake

sometimes i try to understand why is life so strange
hoping to give you everything trying to make you mine
wishing that everything that has happend stays the same
but sometimes it always remains like a story written on an
unwritten Book.
I love you

part 1

Despite all the things that have happened
I still wish a star for you
My dreams are haunting me trying to find you somewhere
You, with the sad eyes
In a world full of people, I can`t lose sight of it
And the darkness inside me makes me feel so small
But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors, and that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Beautiful, like a rainbow

for your infomation please

I´m just growing up nothing else

Sometimes I feel like walking away. Walking in a path that I don´t belong in, a wrong path thats actually meant right but feels so wrong, too wrong to even walk on. You can´t help someone if you don´t believe in him and if you are not willing to accept then there is no need to try and help.

vorschau

Wonderful summer and rainy cool days,
I´m wishing for mama to come back to life.
She holding my memories soo tight and loving each and eveything.

soo sillybeauty

To see you when i wake up,
Is a Gift i didn,t think would be real
To know that you feel the same
As I do, is a three fold Utopian dream

booty nights

the day I met you

Remember the past that brought the future?
Remember our promise that kept its meaning.
I remember everything and I´m not going to forget how it felt and how it feels still loving you. So many times I wasn´t there for you and for every one of those times I hate myself for the way I went about it.
Just in case I never see your face again,
Just in case the worst was meant to happen,
Just in case tomorrow never comes, there is something you should know
You´ve got my life together and I thank you forever. So if I die tonight, before I wake know that you´ve touched my life in so many ways and sugar if my life was all I had to give, would you remember ?

Wenn ich darüber denke wie alles so früher war. Es schreckt manchmal an an früher zu denken

So many i considered closest to me.
Turned on a dime and sold me out dutifully.
Although that knife was chipping away at me.
They turned their eyes away and went home
to sleep.

you knew

Das Glück erkennen wenn es vor einem liegt.
Denn mut und die Entshlossenheit haben es aufzuheben,
in die arme zu schließen und es festzuhalten.
Das ist die Intelligenz des Herzens

Sunday morning

You make me speechless and t
his is the chance to feel all right,
then this could be something but I´m willing to give it a try.
Someday I might hold you on my own.

almost there

makings

Hoping for the best and expecting the worst I wish you could hold me tight right now I shouldn´t have left at all.

Manchmal muss man loslassen um die liebe festzuhalten

Everything's okay in the end.
If it's not okay, it's not the end!
Jemanden versuchen zu vergessen , heißt auch an ihn zu denken.

*you know you love me

Nothing will ever change

See it through I dont think we are ever going to be the girls you wanted us to be and I just dont pass in the picture

!

trying to make me ionize.. shivering in light
my eyes want to speak to me...why won't you let it be?
don't have to do this..crossing my sight
what's the feeling of the rain..washed away in pain
what's the feeling of trying not to run..washed away in time
the river runs, the stars shine
you stay where you are, is it only time
I wonder, if I could be one of you
get that feeling of peace that I haven't knew

because

the world is a wicked world
and so the same your life
i keep on smiling
so longers i can
i need him
♥♥♥